Your place, is to make it Better.

Too often, we cannot see the world around us, because we are lost in the world inside us. One can cause the other, and it can be a just cause indeed, so we set about our righteous wanderings, made so by pain, loss, regret, or whatever else we can lay claim to as our means to the wandering we undertake.

Yet… in truth… there is no real justice to this at all… however we may claim it to be. For wherever we are in this self exile, there is another place we truly need to recognize.

Our place in this world.

It is One we define by our actions, but also, one we have an Obligation… to ourselves, and to everything and everyone it touches, to do right by, to be faithful stewards of, and simply… to make ..better.. for it,, the world around us.. and inside us…  deserves this, and that’s how it keeps going, and so can we..

For in the in end.. for Yourself and All the World around.. its your place.. to make it Better. 011

You will remember me, even if what was me is not here anymore.

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The best and worst things of the human condition, is how we are drawn to one another. These happenings are so celestial in both their origins and mechanisms. Sometimes, its like a planet to a sun… slowly orbiting, taking comfort in the warmth of the other, though the seasons may change from time to time.. growing ever so slightly cold and distant, eventually there is burst of color and life and we are renewed.

Other times.. We fly past each other suddenly… Our skies light up in wonder… but soon its just gone.. and darkness returns..

Then there are those terrible collisions, two bodies collide and the destructive force obliterates both… leaving collateral damage all around… or more ominous… when we encounter a vortex… that event horizon that draws us in and consumes us……

Rarely do we find that harmony… two bodies dancing in union.. that binary system.. moving along, surround by others in a perfect motion…

Yet the truth, the whole universe is moving.. and no matter what our state.. we need to remember this most of all, until we find our place in it

 

The Truth only is welcome, when we can make it serve us (A whiskey Lamentation)

Mo Anam Cara…..

What Say you

Everyone seeks a herald of the truth, or a would be earnest keeper, that would serve us best. However, should it reveal our vices, or be some oculist to ensure clarity of  our being, then we fear it would reveal… Us

This endless merry go round… our need of the truth of us to be known.. and at any given moment… the devastation we will wrought.. to ensure, such truth will never come to be.

We ache.. fear.. long.. beg.. lament.. terrorize… wish for… destroy … ache … ruin… hide from…  sabotage… and surrender to… all for the same

THE TRUTH … OF US.

may we never know it… may others break us for it..

But either way.. may we know peace… 21616393_1940213749571797_21627560212173864_n

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However you see it in this moment,(Truth) you will never see it that way again.

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All our lives we battle our own perspectives. Either it is a desperate rally to cut through the lines of confusion and doubt to see the truth of what we have denied as truth. Or Some harrowing defense to stave off the truth, so we never face it, no matter what price we may pay.

But…  sometimes… we are not the arbiter of our moment of seeing the truth. be it of us, or of something so profound it reveals us..

Sometimes… Life just unleashes Truth upon us.. and we are laid waste by the force of its yield.

We sit the .. our world no more than cinder and ash.. we sit bewildered and confused.

We eventually haphazardly grope at ourselves… to see if all the pieces of us are there…

some times they are.. some times they aren’t.

Slowly we struggle to are feet, and try to find direction, if there is one to find at all, but we are forever changed. We will never see the truth the same way again.

 

 

What became of that person before I became what I have come to be.

We know who we are, or , at least we should, and any given moment that we do, that knowing is bound in who we were, in the where we have come from.

Now this seems a perilous conundrum, rife with unneeded complexity. Yet when that codex is deciphered, It should yield some understandable clues that we can solve the puzzle of us by and large.

This is not what I speak to now.

I am talking about those times when we Know full well, exactly who we are, but we become so fixed on what that means to us, we read into it again , and again,  something else, we literally redefine ourselves in the blindness of our truth, till we are…

not ourselves at all.

The damage is then done…  the simulacrum that has replaced that we knew ourselves to be, Stares at us from the mirror of our soul.. surveying the damage to every part of our lives.

“How did we get here” we ask…

There is no one to answer. We have lost the person who could have.

The person we were, before we became that which we came to be.

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The pain that comes when you trust that in the end, people will be true to who they are, and not what we wanted them to be.

We always want things to work out in the way that we put are minds too, when those people which we anchor that precious state of love and trust upon, so we can assuage our worries and doubts, and seek our hopes and dreams.

They can be Sibling or spouse, parent or paramour, oldest friend, fiance, or would be true love.

We want, we need .. for them to be the persistent and resolute place, that we take to for solace, comfort or hide from the world, they should be a place of strength, a beacon in the dark, to guide us, put us back on the path, give us purpose and most of all the one and true bastion of trust where we never fear betrayal or be failed.

Yet…

We come to know better.

We desperately need to believe we are wrong…  but we know the truth. This knowledge may be something vetted as we have witnessed through actions upon others, or perhaps some gnawing perception we cannot let go of, though would deny it with all our might, or worst we have learned it ourselves through trust given and squandered..  and we just cant believe .. though we knew the truth all along.

DSC01286.JPGIt was not what we knew or when we  knew.. it was always them, it was and always be who they were, who they will be… sometimes we understand this .. sometimes we do not ..

but the most excruciating truth is that we know they will fail us .. again.. no matter what we need them to be.